falling in love.

I want to fall in love again but this time I want it to be beautiful and worth it and magical and splendid and unforgettable and happy and real and honest. When I first fell in love I barely had any of that and what's worst of all is that he didn't love me back and had me waiting for YEARS. I want to to fall in love with the melody of his heartbeat. I want to fall in love and know he's the last boy I will ever love ever again. I want to fall in love and feel him. I want to fall in love and have him fall in love with me back. I want to fall in love and not cry about it. I want to fall in love with the one who is perfectly compatible with me. I'm going to start reading my bible again and get spiritually intact with myself again cause maybe he hasn't come into my life yet because he is waiting for me somewhere to get myself together. I'll get there. Not tomorrow or next week, but I'll get there. ahhhh and then i'll be in love and it'll be unconditional.