Grown-up.

I'm trying. But now a days it's hard. I just began he semester not even a week ago and I feel exhausted. I like all my classes, it's a lot of work but I'm sure I can handle it but it's not even that. I'm 20 years old. I just turned it about 2 months ago but I feel like i'm 27 years old for some reason. And this isn't a new feeling, I've felt like this for quite a while now. I feel this way because people my age don't have responsibilities like I do. I have to clean my ENTIRE house, myself. I have to pay all my bills and make sure they are payed on time, all by myself. I have to pay my rent on time. I have to buy groceries once a week. I have to take out the trash. I have to cook breakfast and dinner so I won't spend money on expensive outside food then wash my dishes. That doesn't sound like a lot? well that's not all. Then I have work 20 hours a week. I have class 19 hours a week, then studying/reading/homework to do probably 20-25 hours a week. I work on Saturday's. And I go try to go to Yoga once or twice a week. And now to add to it I have to do 30 hours of student teaching this semester, which I have to do every semester as an education major. It's just overwhelming. Trust that I'm not complaining, not at all. I'm just realizing that I'm doing too much at a young age. I've grown up too fast. And I had to, it wasn't a choice. Life happened, and I needed to deal with it and grow up. And I've been doing this for the past two years, since I was 18 years old. It's crazy, it's not easy. I mean, nothing in life is easy. But I shouldn't have to get home at 8ish every night and feel like a grown ass woman that still has to cook for herself, write a paper, shower, go to sleep then do it all over again in the morning. I wish i could change certain things but I can't. School is a must. Work pays the bills. And I will NEVER EVER go back to dorming. I guess it's not all so bad but it's not easy. And sometimes, truthfully, it's not fun. I have bigger responsibilities than some 30 year olds have. I can't wait to graduate, and disappear, and not have these kinds of responsibilities. Well at least until I come back from my travels. That will be the day. Looking forward to June 3rd, 2011.

This is what makes me crack up and forget about all my responsibilities.


he said "She look like 9/11 a day later. She looks like 9/12...fuck that bitch, I LOVE LUCY!" hhahhahahahhahahahha Grand-dad from "The Boondocks"

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