22.

My good friend, Safia aka Sughfia, recently wrote a poem to all the boys she's ever loved/liked. It's more like short love letters to all of them. I'm no poet but I wanted to write this to see what I would actually say to every single one of them. Some of these guys were just friends, some boyfriends, some mess-arounds, some mistakes, some smiles, etc. It's 22 of them...rounding about the last 8 years of my life. You should write one of these when you get a chance, it helps let go of certain thins and certain people.

enjoy.......



The 22.

First love,
You changed completely. I guess I was the only one holding yourself together. I hope you’re shinning right now and that our purity has not been forgotten.

Cornell,
It was the most confusing 6 months of my life, but we made it.
You were my first. Your Nigerian dances will be forever remembered on my body.

Jono,
I opened a part of me that you weren’t ready to receive. I’m sorry for the pressure. Your words convinced me that you were ready but your hidden actions taught me that you were and still are a child. I forgive you, but grow up.

Mr. Mars,
I will never forget the perfection that we came to be. Together we discovered that there is love and something special like “our magic” out there. You are the definition of something majestic in the makings. You were the first to make me truly believe that my imperfections were and are beautiful.

Sexual Chocolate,
I’m sorry for being an asshole. I guess I just wasn’t used to the kind of beauty you were and it confused me. But either way you brushed off my immaturity and became one of my best friends. You are truly one of the best people I know.

Sun,
I will always love you. I fell in love with you and I don't regret it. But I'm no longer there, and I'm okay with that. But when you do find "her", I hope you treat “her” like I treated you or better. We were obviously not meant to be. Even though you never apologized, I forgave you anyways. Thanks for hip-hop.

Pace,
I’m sorry. I handled things as if your feelings were non-existant. You will always be remembered in my heart. I just couldn’t be your girlfriend.

Abe babe,
You allowed me to learn you and you learn me. It was hard letting you go but you needed to continue the magnificent journey you were sent to make. I hope I find a place in this journey of yours again someday.

J Maria,
You’re so lame.

Best friend,
Sorry for ever comparing our story to “Brown Sugar”. We are nothing like that, we are our own anomaly. You will never get rid of me and I will never get rid of you, and I don’t mind that.

Ivy-Leaguer,
I wish I would have texted you and called you when I said I would. I guess I really am the ‘fronter’ you claimed me to be. Maybe we could have been as illuminating as your smile. Nevertheless, I hope you’re happy with her.

DJ,
I was stupid. You treated me like I was the first day of summer. I was too distracted with the world at the moment; I’m no longer distracted. What’s good?

Theo Huxtable look-a-like,
I didn’t want to break your heart, that’s why I broke it off. I’m sorry for being so different, in a bad way. Life tends to throw you perfection when you’re still getting used to mediocrity.

Beta,
You told me you loved me after 1 date. I didn’t know what to say.

Roldy,
You made me feel like I was a queen every second of every day. Sorry for treating you like a peasant, you were beyond that and more.

Church Camp,
You should have been more honest. I can handle the truth, most days. You still look mad good. bag?

Santo Domingo,
I took your innocence away as well as your love. It was never my intention. I guess I was broken and wanted you to fix me. It wasn’t your problem to fix in the first place. Te amare para siempre.

Mr. 5, 280 Feet’s,
I always wondered what it would be like. But we still didn’t do the right thing at the right moment, it could have been perfect. At least my what-if’s are out the window now. But either way you are my friend and I see you getting lost now a days, find your place again. It’s a beautiful place.

Zodiac sign,
You confused the hell out of me. Your smile would tell me something and your eyes would tell me something different. I was clearly into you. You lied a few times but I don’t care, I guess It wasn’t that serious. Fant.

The one,
I haven’t found you yet. Rather, you haven’t found me yet. I know we are living our lives right now, lingering in the fact that we are either alone or mal acompanao(in bad company). I’m in love with you and I have never even smelled you scent, never have experienced an argument with you and have never seen the sparkle in your eye. You were made me for me. So come soon, cause my patience is running out and I might get lost someday in a place that you won’t be able to find me. No pressure, but don’t take too long.

Papi,
The love of my life. You were no boyfriend. No mess around. No booty call. No friend. You were the love of my life, my father. Amongst all these men, none have compared to the majesty that you are. I wish you were still around. I love you. Guide the right one to me, I promise I‘ll know it’s him and cherish him until the day I die. You know I’m not picky, just mold him into the most beautifully created human being that compliments every flaw that exists in my being. It’s that simple.

Me,
I love you. Don’t ever change for anyone. You are imperfectly perfect. You will change the world one day, and that special guy will recognize that and he will change the world with you. Just wait, a little birdie told me he’s on his way to you. Don’t fall again, cause it’s taken you a while to get back up but at least you did it all on your own. You’re so beautiful, you remind me of the ocean.



Love,
Pricelis Perreaux