I guess it's a response, or just a lot of random thoughts I had about the idea in my head. Nevertheless I guess it's something that should be written down.
I'v grown to develop an idea of WHO God truly is. Not who he/she is to those who are christian, not who he/she is to the world, not who he/she is to homosexuals. But who is he/she is to me. I once heard someone say "we are all God's" and I agree with that statement completely. we are all God's, roaming around this world with questions, building this world slowly into the beauty it will become some day. I generally don't ever question God, because there's no need for that. I only question myself. I sometimes do question why I question him/her though. It simplifies to the fact that the bible was written by a MAN, actually several MEN. So I'm not going to entirely believe everything it says. Yes some say that means I have no faith, and I'll just laugh in their face because I have the word FAITH tattoed on my ankle. So obviously I have tremendous faith, but in who and what you ask? in the universe. That it works the way it will. Some people will get hurt, others won't. God gave us only one thing, Life and we have to choose which way we live it. I don't believe in heaven nor hell, because most of the time you can find those two kinds of places anywhere on earth. I believe that life is precious, I believe in Gods. I believe in truth. I believe in honesty. I believe in freedom. Religions and the "one" God, everyone speaks of, often contradicts itself.
It's funny cause in high school I would love to go to church, especially with my best friend kathy. Her church was very different from the one I had gone to before that. I enjoyed my time there, and learned a lot. But I found no need to ever return.
I don't believe God let me down when my father died, I believe he challanged me. And to reiterate the line from a poem i wrote in a previous post. I said "....God for letting me down.
Not really letting me down but leaving me down here to remember that he isn't really there anymore" I said "not really letting me down, but leaving me down here" As in, giving my father life to give me life, so when my father was gone I would remember that. As in, I don't blame God for anything. I just say that i'm down here(which contradicts my idea of no heaven nor hell but whatever lol) but basically saying I'm left here to remember everyday, what happened. But I've learned that reminiscing could be the most nourishing food you feed your soul. Because I don't have bad memories of my father, just of the day. And that day is mostly a blurr anyways.
So in conclusion,
I believe in God.
I don't believe in the divine plan.
I believe he gave us one thing, and that is life. So we should cherish it.
I believe religions are ridiculous, and the bible actually says to follow a religion is a sin
I believe the bible is a guide for some or just a piece of literature for others.
I find it to be a journal written a long time ago, and it's full of stories that teach me new things every time.
I believe in FAITH.
I believe in FAITH.
I believe in FAITH.
and that will forever be my belief.
This is all my opinion, nothing fact.
I respect your beliefs, and love you all for being the individual believers in anything you believe, that's real.
Maybe this makes sense to some and to others it may sound like a whole bunch of jibberish, but it came from my mind and my life experiences so booya!!
Blessings from wherever you may want them to come from! :)
p.s. kathy, thank you for always talking to me about this kind of stuff in high school. I really needed it. I love you best friend, always.
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