So it's father's day.....hmm my father passed away when I was 11 years old R.I.P. and it was really hard cause 1, I was 11 2, it was in a plane crash and 3, cuz death is tough!! But having a beautiful and storng family always with him helped a lot. I hardly ever let anyone in about this stuff, if they ask I'll tell them he passed away but I don't start a conversation about it. I've hated pitty all my life, I don't like seeing that awww i'm sorry face when I tell someone my dad passed away cause why are you sorry, you probably never knew him and he's probably in a better place waiting for me to join him. So why sorry? Why not i bet he's proud of you, or I bet he's looking down on you smiling, or he was a lucky father, or something nice like that, don't apologize for something that has nothing to do with you and trust me I know sorry will never make anyone that has lost someone close feel better. But anyways yea my Dad was a cool guy, he was amazing. People always tell me I look just like him.
So I was talking to a close friend of mine the other day about his dad and he was just like na yo my dad don't care about me he just says hi to me everyday at home but he's like a monster or like a robot. I was like alright well what are you getting him for fathers day, he was like well prob money or something, i might not even see him. I think about people like this with their dads and it pisses me off because if you have your father, appreciate him, even if he is old school corny, or really old, or wants to fit in with you, wants to be your friend, yells too much, he does it all cause he loves and cares about you even though he doesn't tell you too often. I recieved money when I turned 18 due to my father passing away and what I did with it was rent out an apartment, and bought a lot of nice things, took a trip to California stuff like that. But if you ask if I rather live in a dump in go to a cheap community college and not leave the country forever but still have my dad alive I would say yes because people think that all this material crap I got is worth something, it aint worth shit. But it's life and as they say...everything happens for a reason. God knows why he does things. I got FAITH, just FAITH goes a LONG way. Anways Happy Father's Day to all the fathers out there and to all the children that are fatherless, take advantage of your mother and be proud of her cause she is your mother and father. And to all the kids that do have their dad, give em a big hug and always let him know how much you love him because as they say...you never know what you got 'til it's gone.
Erykah Badu "The Healer"
Paz out!
R.I.P. Luis Gustavo Perreaux aka Papi 12/11/2001 <3
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